Letting go. . .

Yesterday we got the news that Baby G has been referred to another family.  This entire process of accepting her, and then discovering that we may not get her, and then almost 2 full months later finding out that she won't be coming to our home has been emotionally draining.  We had such joy and were so ready to make her our daughter.  We became emotionally attached to her and loved her, despite never meeting her.  We prayed, fasted, cried lots of tears, dreamed, and experienced lots of joy because of Baby G.  This is much like a miscarriage.  Losing her is hard.  However, we do have the joy of knowing she is going to a home where she will no longer be an orphan.  We hope and pray this is a very good home.

                         

In our sorrow we were reminded that we are adopting because orphans need a home and we want to provide that home; not because we need to be parents, although we do desire and anticipate that.  If she is getting a good home we have nothing to be sad about.  She is getting exactly what we want her to have.  In our hearts we have planned for her and loved her.  Maybe we will meet her in heaven someday.
                                                          
As for us, we will go back to the top of our agency's waiting list for another child or children who do still need a mom and dad.  The Lord will place the children who need us in our home and we will love them and be just as excited about them.  We do know that there are plenty of children who need homes and we will successfully be a loving home for someone/them.  We look forward to that!
                                        
I will turn their mourning into gladness; I will give them comfort and joy instead of sorrow.  Jeremiah 31:13b